I know it takes time to love our insecurities, I know it takes time to accept them, but stop making excuses to not fighting them. So many people survive from this mental disorders, so that should happen to you too!

And it’s heart breaking if you’re being insecure because you want yourself as perfect as the celebrities or models in the magazine. Because a little fyi, they’re all photoshopped. Remember our sister Zoeey Deschanel who had a little cat fight on twitter with one of the popular fashion magazine months ago? Yup, that fight. A fight about how her face can change that much, that pretty and that… different ( cough, photoshop ).

Isn’t it too much?

I am not saying that they’re all ( the celebrities and models ) fake. Yes, they’re beautiful. But that skinny body and beautiful face, they got them the hard way. So many of them work out everyday, do a lot of botox and plastic surgery, such a price to pay!

So shut up, pretty. You’re pretty. You don’t have to own a big eyes to be pretty. You don’t have to be a paper thin aka skinny to look pretty. Remember what Bruno Mars said, cos you’re amazing, just the way you are ( only if you’re confident and focus on improving yourself ).

Even celebrities have insecurities as well!

“Learning to not be insecure took some time. I would always see skinny models and think I didn’t fit in, but I realized I can’t change my reality; I can only do what I can to improve my body and work out to stay fit and healthy,” says Kardashian, who admits, “I love the definition I see in my arms!”

Speaking of Kim, you gotta see this.

Kkkrazy.

It’s not only Kim who has insecurities. You can see more in here.

So maybe a lot of you guys are screaming inside, so yeah what the hell? What am I supposed to do after knowing all of this? And how can I change mine or improve them anyway?

PRETTY FACE?

Girls, the power of make up.

SKINNY BODY?

Diet. Gym. Healthy food. I know this is a lifetime struggle to get in the best shape, but it’s not impossible to achieve!

STYLISH

A lot of fashion magazine ( online or not online ) you can read and learn to find your best style, they usually give you the do’s and don’t's for the latest trend, but it’s definitely okay if you got your own style. There are so many fashion blogs too nowadays you can check out my favorite websites.

PERSONALITY

No need to choose who you gotta be, it’s you and always you. So be you! Be a girl with the true personality, true talent and true heart. If it’s not what’s inside that shine, no matter how shiny your appearance is ( this is not cliche ), you won’t shine the good way. INNER BEAUTY LADIES! OR GENTLEMEN!

  And what happens if you think you can change everything ( especially your body ) as ‘perfect’ as you’ve always wanted it to be? What’s crossing your mind right now? Me? Our sister, Heidi Montag. Sorry sis, but it’s you that can teach us this lesson best.

Have a great day everyone!

]]> http://storielisssa.wordpress.com/2011/08/12/girls-and-bffinsecurities/feed/ 4 bonjoureliza http://storielisssa.wordpress.com/2011/08/10/be-you/ http://storielisssa.wordpress.com/2011/08/10/be-you/#comments Wed, 10 Aug 2011 15:03:43 +0000 elisa beth http://storielisssa.wordpress.com/?p=508 Continue reading →]]> For this kind of crazy world we’re living today, I’m pretty sure one of the hardest thing to do is to be yourself. Life forces us to be kind to those who we hate the most, push us to be something we don’t even know, creeps us in so many way and somehow, you lost count of how many times people criticize you, reject you, and hurt you.

We somehow don’t know how to act, we’re starting to adapt, tolerate, and accept what people did and do to us. But don’t tolerate too much, don’t accept everything people did or do to us, stand up for yourself, and be you.

For me, be you means : to know exactly what kind of person you are, to know the good sides of yourself and focus on them. If you said, ooh I am a lazy person, ooh I am a hater, ooh I am a clumsy person, for me it’s not you. It’s the bad habits that you should fight and fix it.

Why? Why do we have to be ourself? Because people will respect you ( because you respect yourself in the first place ). It is as simple as that.

Figure what you want, figure your weakness, figure what you like, figure what makes you happy, figure what amuse you, don’t settle for something that is less than you deserve.

There’s these ridiculous opinions about being ourself from some random person I know. They said that if we want to be ourself we can’t be success in the same way like our role models’ successful story. OF COURSE that is fine, to motivate yourself, and learn from someone else’s experience is wise. Some people flatter themselves that they are the most original person in the world.

AND I DO AGREE!

Our lovely sister Heidi Montag teach us an important lesson. She had done so many plastic surgery, maybe because she’s so insecure and compare herself too much to other popular hollywood girls too much. And how she ended up to be? Is she an inspiration? Pretty sure, she’s not.

But this girl is an inspiration. Her name is Dylan Sada. A young multi-talented artist that I found in facebook.

She’s a damn talented photographer ( and she sings too! ) from Indonesia who lives in Brooklyn, NY. Maybe I don’t know her in person, but judging by the photos she uploads, the statuses she writes, she has no time to mind other’s business, she wears crazy clothes or even not wearing anything everytime she feels like it. Really, she helped me to be a stronger person. You may say that I’m exaggerating this, but really, she taught me that it’s okay to be different, to be someone that people might hate, it’s okay to be hated, as long as it cause no harm to other, to be ourself is the most beautiful thing.

I remembered that day, my no-mannered and not polite junior in high school said that I am ” disgusting ” behind my back, in front of my face. I was in a campus tour that day, and me and my friend were so excited and automatically raised our hands when the MC asked who likes Grey’s Anatomy. And that bitch said that we’re disgusting. I am disgusting. And I said loudly to her, ” I am disgusting, so fut the wuck?”

I don’t care. Call me disgusting, call me cheap, call me anything. You have rights to say things about me, and I have right to not give a damn. As long as you’re fine, slaps the haters virtually, but if you’re insulted, slap them physically! JUST KIDDING! lol

Lemme say this again. Stand up for yourself, be you!

Have a splendid day!

xx!

Tears are evaporated from the pore

Roads are filled with silence

And heart screams all the time

Because from now on, fears finally win.

I am trying to find myself

Back to the past, leave all the rest

Crawling in a room of memories

Trapped by the beat of time

Now the tears are falling

Right in front of me

I see a little girl with victory

but all she has now is misery.

No one needs to be wise

Fools live a thousand years longer

Because the fear of living

Are fed by the brain that keeps thinking.

I can’t find the little girl

I choose to go back to reality

But the heart wont stop asking

One tempting emotional offer :

“would you go back there just to see her smile?”

]]> http://storielisssa.wordpress.com/2011/06/21/22/feed/ 1 bonjoureliza http://storielisssa.wordpress.com/2011/06/20/theres-i-in-happiness/ http://storielisssa.wordpress.com/2011/06/20/theres-i-in-happiness/#comments Mon, 20 Jun 2011 12:10:38 +0000 elisa beth http://storielisssa.wordpress.com/?p=469 Continue reading →]]>

I’m on the pursuit of happiness and I know everything that shines ain’t always gonna be gold
I’ll be fine once I get it, I’ll be good

Pursuit of Happiness – Kid Cudi

Everybody has their own way to be happy, but no matter how, they should make their own happiness. The key is about what’s inside : which is no one but : YOU. The simple logic : If a homeless girl can laugh out loud living her life each day to the fullest, then why is the rich brat still complaining about her life every second in her life. That means, it doesn’t matter how rich you are, how pretty you are, how smart and how important you are, if you can’t make your own happiness, you never really able to make a happy life.

But, hey. Who has a happy life? I don’t think anyone in this world has one. Einstein was considered stupid, Bill Gates failed his exams. Was that fun? NO FUN. Everyone’s life sucks, like our lovely sister Paris Hilton, well, she got everything, but speaking of the video she made when she was 18, was that fun? Hell no! So once again, it depends on how smart you are in making your own happiness.

But talk is cheap, violets are blue what the . Happiness can’t be defined in words. I have a friend who keeps updating status on social network about how he hates his life. He has everything, great family, good friends, smart brain, and good looking too. I used to hate him, you know, he’s luckier than me in every way! Or maybe not in every way, but he can get everything he wants. Why can’t he focus on the open door rather on the other few closed doors! I mean, my door are mostly closed, but see me know, I’m miserable happy!

So I updated my status about how African live their life in a state of hunger and poverty and their popular endemic disease, they still at least live. They don’t ask God to take away their life… (or maybe that’s because they don’t have smartphones so we wouldn’t know), they live their life, and they survive. But, why such a lucky person like him keeps grumbling?!!!! (note : when I said he, I mean it’s a she).

Our pop diva actually made this clear years ago. Britney Spears’ song “Lucky” tells it all. Even she has Hollywood, then why do these tears come at night? You can’t guarantee someone’s happiness just because their lucky or luckier than you. I think it’s not fair for us to judge or even hate people we consider lucky when they’re grumbling about their life. Because, not everyone can enjoy the life that suck hard, right? Well, Miley said there is no guarantee, that this life is easy.

So, I don’t hate you anymore dear someone. Sorry for being so narrow-minded.

Three songs below are the links to download 3 songs I’ve mentioned in this post, powered by 4shared

Kid Cudi ft. MGMT – Pursuit Of Happiness

Britney Spears – Lucky

Miley Cyrus – When I Look At You

THANK YOU!

This second semester’s activities are kind of tight, which has successfully made me and my friend’s ritual like going out, watching movies, chilling and stuffs really f’d up. Yeah, really. We’re literally stuck in our bedrooms reading the books and papers. And if we’re bored with the exam’s stuff, no worries. My good friend gave me bunch of youtube’s funny videos ( yeah, our life’s sad. But, not really. ) just for making our life isn’t as sad as it might be. HAHAH! ( We’re getting hooked with Ryan Higa’s Video! )

Speaking of the exam, I find it funny that every girl’s hair in the campus are so ‘different’ with their usual normal hair on the exam day. Yeah, mine too actually. Maybe we just don’t have enough time to do our hair before the test, which makes our daily hair like ↓

became like this ↓

Or maybe it wasn’t that bad (sorry before for the girl in this photo). But, really. I can see it clearly that all of the girl’s hair are different, at least they wear hair clips every where on their head. But it’s good, you know. It’s like we all do something in the same way. You have no idea how annoying it is to have Miranda Kerr’s hair on the exam day. Because all of your hair will go down and block the light, and covers your face, and you’ll end up look like ↓

(Okay I don’t really have the guts it’s not really necessary to put the real Sadako picture ( and in the big size ) This photo is good enough to show you guys my point of view, right? Yeah. Should be.

Well, maybe I’m exaggerating this stuff a little too much. But it really felt that way!

I don’t know why but I’m so excited to see how the girl’s hair in the campus will be on the exam day, it’s kind of lame but it really is exciting actually. Guessing is fun. This whole hair thing makes us like ONE, it’s like we fight ( the exam, you know ) for something together, in the same way ( the hair clips thing )!

So, that’s it. Thank you so much for your time reading this ridiculous post. XX!

Simply having children does not make mothers.  ~John A. Shedd

Many people say that parents can never hate their own child. Thinking about the the world we live in today, I don’t think this statement can be guaranteed anymore. It’s like, come on, every types of people we could and couldn’t imagine sadly exist in this world. Father murdered his daughter, mother abandoned his son. What? It’s for the best? Is that love? Who are you kidding.

So this thing popped out in my head. How can the parents hate their own child? It’s not fair and even possible for me. So for all the parents in the world, there are facts you need to know before you hate your own children.

1. You’re the reason we’re here. Note that.
2. We never ask for that pain in the labor and the dirty diapers thing to happen. We never ask to live in this world.
3. If you can’t stand our behavior, don’t forget who taught us. You yelled at us, so don’t expect the nod and the hug.
4. If you don’t want us. Funny. Do you think we want you? We’re just stuck and we have no choice.
5. We can’t be the bad luck, that is not fair. It’s like you make a painting and you hate it for being so ugly. Like, what the? You made it yourself. You made us.

1. We actually love you.
2. We choose you over our friends, but you chose your job over us, so we just seek for someone that understands us.
3. We’re dying to grow up. The world is cruel, people hate us. At least stop making our life harder by hating us.
4. We never really want to run away. You think it’s fun to cry all the way to no where?
5. We would love to help you, but we messed things, we’re just kids. We learn. Sorry for not being as ‘perfect’ as you are.

We can’t hate you, dear parents.

Or maybe, we don’t want to. 

But I guess I gotta stop being an emo, not just because I’m too old for that (yeah 19 this year) , but also because there’s a point here. A point where we should be strong enough to face the truth. In the bright side, we see colors. If it is white, it is white. It is black when it’s black. But if you think all we see is rainbow, don’t forget about the rain. In my life, until today, I see a lot of things I don’t wanna see, things I don’t wanna hear, problems I don’t want to handle. This bright side sucks sometimes, but life isn’t always about candy and rainbow, right?

I’ve been wondering about my life recently. I once lived in the dark, or at least that’s what I think I was living, where all I see is nothing. I became self-centered and that bitch you might hate, because I didn’t listen to anyone, I made a lot of mess, well, my life was officially screwed at that moment. I was trying to find a way back to normal, try to be honest to my self. And I can’t believe the only way out was just to open my eyes.

It was hard. After you leave the dark place and start a new beginning, that’s where the struggle begins. It’s where people stay the same, not doing any changes, where here inside us, we hope everything change, because we did change to be better. But yeah, that slap of a reality. Yeah, that bitch.

When we open our eyes, when we see the light, doesn’t mean that we have to care or concern about everything that we see, because we’re gonna end up exhausted or maybe hurt for nothing. We have to be focus on what’s next. Focus about the plans of our life, about what you should and shouldn’t do. Focus on the priorities, focus to love people that you care the most. And what about anything else? Well, it will be strong enough to come out from the surface if it is worth thinking.

But that dark side, surely is a nice play to visit!

Gotta send you my love! Nice day! Xx

Adults have their own way to make us believe in something. They got reasons, and maybe some of them got proofs. And what do we have to do to prevent provocative statements to became our life mottos? Stick to the right thing. No matter how many reasons, how possible it might seem, how right it could be, you don’t get to believe them. You have to listen, just to make sure there’s no contradiction, but you don’t have to believe, because to believe in something is up to all you, no one can force you to.

People make their own theory, about the right and the wrong things. And you gotta be careful, because this right or wrong things, might get you trapped.

I’ve experienced these stuffs kind of often, I guess that’s just the price you have to pay for growing up, you will meet a lot of (manipulative and mental) people. Well one ‘trap’ that I still remember till today is about this guy that was saying :

“Smoking is definitely okay because people have needs, and if smoking is wrong just because you can’t pass a day without it, it means having rice as a daily needs(Indonesian) is the same matter with smoking?”

Well this person must never really attend elementary school, because it is damn clear that your body NEED the carb, fat and protein. You have them because you need them, not because you’re addicting to it. And cigs, it ruins your body cells and some vital systems of your body, and you think you need them, but that’s because the addictive substance that manipulates your brain.

See the point? They’re connecting links, finding the same keywords just to make it looks true and connected, but actually they’re just fooling themselves. Stick to the 1+1 equals 2. No matter how far that “1” have been through (maybe they’ve been through algebra or logarithm) stick to the point that the answer should be 2, if the case is 1+1.

And what’s the use of knowing this? What’s the use of sticking to the right things? Well, one. You don’t let people control you, not today and not ever. Two, you will eventually find out who’s the good and the bad guy, because the good guy, won’t get you trapped with the wrong perception!

Really sorry for abandoning this blog for months! I don’t care if there are still readers out there checking on mine, but the point is, I totally am going to get this blog updated!

LOVE LOVE LOVE!

I went to China when I was 15 to study there. I thought it’s perfect. Life will be much better and I’ll be happier. I thought China is a big country, and I think Bei Jing is a big city. Yes they are big, but they’re not that kind of big city you want to live at.

I was really young, and at that age I met too many jerks and bitches, so there were a lot of pressure, and I honestly can’t bare. I thought people at my age still need some kind of protection from parents and support from friends. So I decided to go back hometown, because that would be perfect right? You’ll have everything there. Family, friends, stuffs. But I don’t know how, I was wrong, again.

I went to Highschool and it was tough to get along with my friends. And I guess that’s because I was too mature for people at my age. I have such a different point of view, I didn’t really understand why they’re all so childish. That was harder when my parents that I  think will support me, didn’t really do. I was focus on studying because I missed 6 months school and that means 1 semester, because I went to China. But I didn’t really understand how my parents push me to do something that really is a bull(like washing my socks myself, what the hell is that for, when other can do the laundry?) I called my sisters for support but they didn’t really understand. They said I have to be mature, and I am pretty sure that they forgot about the efforts I should make for continuing the normal study after I missed one fvcking semester at grade 10. So now I have nothing, no real friends, no real family, no one.

So I decided to move to Jakarta for a better life, and this was not a mistake. I met so many wonderful people and I do have such a good life there.

I still have several ‘Perfect Life’ imaginations now in my mind (one of those is to have a car and an apartment), but from the lesson that I’ve learned, everything has it’s own consequences because there always be a possibility for everything to happen in our life. So I won’t make those come true without a serious thought and I learn to be more grateful for what I have now.

So, I just want to tell you, that if you all now living a life that you think isn’t perfect because you have that ‘Perfect Life’ in your mind, stop thinking that way. Because it isn’t always gonna be that perfect, learn from your mistakes and be a better person. Be grateful for what you have, because the life you’re living now, maybe it’s a perfect life you always want but you just don’t realize it.